i find that having not enough sleep does certain things to you, such as helping you become more alert, or attuned to certain stuff, and you lose sight of certain things, you may do things sluggishly, or seem absent minded...

then.. having nothing to do, you also start forgetting certain things, you remember unimportant stuff, you tend to go about doing things and end up forgetting why you did them in the first place..

i feel the need to do something, yet, things aren't moving the way i want them to, looking for a job is not easy... the wait is agonising. i want to do work, but yet, i want to do something that i really enjoy too..

it's tough...