midweek, my week
weeks have passed and i'm still unmotivated to update. wonder why. has life become so mundane that i've stopped wanting to report the little things i do daily? i've fallen into a routine, i'm doing the same mindless things everyday, but everyday is different.. it's not like i'm spending each day like i did the day before, i just don't have a goal, a purpose, a desire to break from my current comfort zone...
well, updates.. mundane updates of life... i realised i've fallen into a alignment of neutral neutral.. (D&D players would know)... this sense of indifference for things that go on, it doesn't really help for someone keeping an online diary.
things are going fine between me and her. we're progressing and learning more about each other, and while her schoolwork piles up, her stress level does too, and my listening pleasure gets increased... do you know i like to listen? but i like to listen and not want to say much... i like spending time, and just spending time, doing whatever, being in the same room, hanging out, it all helps me feel connected to you. i don't need to speak to feel connected... unlike you... i don't like speaking.. because i can't speak.. the myriad and depth of my emotions, i am unable to express, and that frustrates me.
saturdays come by and go around, and each skating weekend gets better as we become more focused and motivated on improving our slalom, coming up with new moves, learning old unlearned ones, figuring out new wonderful moves seen on videos, hanging out with a bunch of people who share the same passion as me, and just yesterday, we spent the evening at esplanade underpass slaloming too, and it was a great midweek reprive for the bored and tired working souls, and it was just nice that it's the sch holidays so the beast of a jeremy could join us too... we decided to make the midweek sessions a weekly thing, so it would be pretty interesting to see how much improvement we may get with the extra training...
the ifsa judge course details are up but i can't go, given my new commitment to earning a miserable pittance for what is expected of me, a mountain of effort... but anyways, the course is pretty interesting, with judging for both slalom and jump included, course being free, as long as you can make it there, find a hotel, find food, and find transport..
i'm starting work next monday, signed on the dotted line with NETS today.. going to be a "Executive". but it's going to be more like "SLAVE" for the pittance they are giving me. anyways it's something to tide me over while i suck my savings dry from all the diving i want to go for, and while the air force takes it own sweet time to help me empty my bank account...
so well there, that's how life is, and i'm still as indifferent to things as before.. maybe a new goal, such as looking forward to payday will give me a fresh incentive to move my alignment from neutral neutral...
till then...
weeks have passed and i'm still unmotivated to update. wonder why. has life become so mundane that i've stopped wanting to report the little things i do daily? i've fallen into a routine, i'm doing the same mindless things everyday, but everyday is different.. it's not like i'm spending each day like i did the day before, i just don't have a goal, a purpose, a desire to break from my current comfort zone...
well, updates.. mundane updates of life... i realised i've fallen into a alignment of neutral neutral.. (D&D players would know)... this sense of indifference for things that go on, it doesn't really help for someone keeping an online diary.
things are going fine between me and her. we're progressing and learning more about each other, and while her schoolwork piles up, her stress level does too, and my listening pleasure gets increased... do you know i like to listen? but i like to listen and not want to say much... i like spending time, and just spending time, doing whatever, being in the same room, hanging out, it all helps me feel connected to you. i don't need to speak to feel connected... unlike you... i don't like speaking.. because i can't speak.. the myriad and depth of my emotions, i am unable to express, and that frustrates me.
saturdays come by and go around, and each skating weekend gets better as we become more focused and motivated on improving our slalom, coming up with new moves, learning old unlearned ones, figuring out new wonderful moves seen on videos, hanging out with a bunch of people who share the same passion as me, and just yesterday, we spent the evening at esplanade underpass slaloming too, and it was a great midweek reprive for the bored and tired working souls, and it was just nice that it's the sch holidays so the beast of a jeremy could join us too... we decided to make the midweek sessions a weekly thing, so it would be pretty interesting to see how much improvement we may get with the extra training...
the ifsa judge course details are up but i can't go, given my new commitment to earning a miserable pittance for what is expected of me, a mountain of effort... but anyways, the course is pretty interesting, with judging for both slalom and jump included, course being free, as long as you can make it there, find a hotel, find food, and find transport..
i'm starting work next monday, signed on the dotted line with NETS today.. going to be a "Executive". but it's going to be more like "SLAVE" for the pittance they are giving me. anyways it's something to tide me over while i suck my savings dry from all the diving i want to go for, and while the air force takes it own sweet time to help me empty my bank account...
so well there, that's how life is, and i'm still as indifferent to things as before.. maybe a new goal, such as looking forward to payday will give me a fresh incentive to move my alignment from neutral neutral...
till then...
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