when 2 people get together it's very fun, very exciting, there's lotsa laughter and joy and sweetness..

but what does happen when they split up? where did the fun, excitement, laughter, joy and sweetness go to? did it turn to dread, terror, tears, sadness and bitterness?
why do things have to become like that? sometimes we just can't control i suppose, but why let a split up destroy everything that was ever once there? why would you want to avoid someone you once shared your most intimate secrets with? was it all for nothing? all a lie? i know it's difficult sometimes and escape is the easiest thing to do, but i think the best way to help yourself move on is to face the facts, don't avoid each other, but maintain things at a fair, platonic level. it's difficult, but i tend to think of it this way,
"breaking up doesn't mean it never happened, go out and talk to your ex, he/she probably can be your best friend"

today was another wheezin day. i slept at like 4 and woke at 9 to get to school to meet my supervisor. he's a nice old man, and he puts me at ease. i look forward to working with him. it's easy to be motivated when you aren't being threatened. humans are complex, but i guess i'm trying to achieve self actualization here.. hehehe.. think maslow's heirarchy.
anyways i came home and cleaned up my pets, let them bask, did the laundry, took a nap, woke up, studied, had dinner, studied more, watched tv.. did a tutorial.. hahaha.. boring stuff isn't it...

i bought this loreal spray.. it's styling water that i've used before, nice nice smell, and it's not sticky. problem is that it's really expensive. haha.
oh. i got a haircut. now i look like some army boy again.. hurhurhur.. cept i'm too fat...

gotta be out rushing more work tomorrow, it's 4265 this time.. maybe they should close the university too...