life is one big complex mystery. sometimes why do people say they want something then do another, that's in total contratiction to what they say they want, and in end after they realise what has happened, they complain and kick up a big fuss about things not going they way they want it to be, forgetting that fact that actually, in the beginning it was them that brought it this way.
people are social creatures, we need friends, family, loved ones... and when one part of our lives go missing, then somehow it's not easy to deal with the sudden loss. it happens so very often. loss of a loved one, kin, friend, and you just sit there in shock, in wonder, at what's going to go on. many times it helps when you have other things to help keep your mind off things. i didn't really want to come here and write but i think writing may help me feel better by facing my emotions and thinking about how to deal with them. the exams are coming and i have to concentrate. i've not been working as hard as i should be and i know it myself but it's difficult to push myself when there are so many other commitments. true it is always easy to blame it on other commitments, but since i took them up, i should learn to manage myself my time and what not. this sem has been a very very busy one and i hope i will not have to go thru all this nonsense ever again.
i'm single and i'm not looking. i'm not available and i don't intend to be for a while. it's time to start concentrating on the important things in life now. getting the degree i need to get myself a proper job.
money makes the world go round, as for now, it's something i intend to make lots of before anything else. call me materialistic. i don't care. this world is a cruel one. why be nice anymore?
hope those with sars recover soon.