convulsions, vision problems, euphoria, nausea, tinnitus, irritation, dizziness

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surprise! i'm back. anyways i'm nice and settled into my job.. waking up at 7, leaving the house at 730, reaching the office at 815, starting work around 845, lunch at 1230, back in at 130, looking ahead to 6pm, 530 on fridays..

it's been like that.. on and on.. kinda monotonous.. and well, i don't drive to work, i take the train.. but i get the benefit of my folks sending me to the mrt, then they go for their morning walk or go to the market..

i'm not sitting in my department... those guys are on the 4th floor.. i'm all alone on the 2nd.. which suits me just fine.. nobody can question what i'm doing... but it's not like i skive and don't do my work.. my manager's nice to me so far.. since i haven't been giving her crap in whatever i've been doing.. the people here are nice.. with the powerpuff girls(3 admin ladies), the whole bunch of finance people, their poohbearloving senior manager, the rich hr manager, and loads of funny characters around..

i've got some pictures of work... http://nytemare.lobang.net/NETS and http://nytemare.lobang.net/NETS/MAF

the first link being some silly shots i took for some of the aunties in the office.. well, how to call auntie, they're not like very much older... haha.. then the 2nd is for the mid autumn festival celebrations held this monday~

i've got till dec 31st for this contract, but i don't think i'll need to stay till then, since my final deliverable date is end of nov..

it's another diving trip to tioman this weekend, this time i go with penetration divers. it should be fun. wet workshop for digital photography too.

well, otherwise, it's always saturdays i look forward to.. can skate.. but then there was one saturday, when i suddenly felt i didn't want to skate.. didn't feel like skating.. didn't want to move.. was absolutely sluggish.. we all have bad days.. why must it be on my skating day...

midweek, my week

weeks have passed and i'm still unmotivated to update. wonder why. has life become so mundane that i've stopped wanting to report the little things i do daily? i've fallen into a routine, i'm doing the same mindless things everyday, but everyday is different.. it's not like i'm spending each day like i did the day before, i just don't have a goal, a purpose, a desire to break from my current comfort zone...

well, updates.. mundane updates of life... i realised i've fallen into a alignment of neutral neutral.. (D&D players would know)... this sense of indifference for things that go on, it doesn't really help for someone keeping an online diary.

things are going fine between me and her. we're progressing and learning more about each other, and while her schoolwork piles up, her stress level does too, and my listening pleasure gets increased... do you know i like to listen? but i like to listen and not want to say much... i like spending time, and just spending time, doing whatever, being in the same room, hanging out, it all helps me feel connected to you. i don't need to speak to feel connected... unlike you... i don't like speaking.. because i can't speak.. the myriad and depth of my emotions, i am unable to express, and that frustrates me.

saturdays come by and go around, and each skating weekend gets better as we become more focused and motivated on improving our slalom, coming up with new moves, learning old unlearned ones, figuring out new wonderful moves seen on videos, hanging out with a bunch of people who share the same passion as me, and just yesterday, we spent the evening at esplanade underpass slaloming too, and it was a great midweek reprive for the bored and tired working souls, and it was just nice that it's the sch holidays so the beast of a jeremy could join us too... we decided to make the midweek sessions a weekly thing, so it would be pretty interesting to see how much improvement we may get with the extra training...

the ifsa judge course details are up but i can't go, given my new commitment to earning a miserable pittance for what is expected of me, a mountain of effort... but anyways, the course is pretty interesting, with judging for both slalom and jump included, course being free, as long as you can make it there, find a hotel, find food, and find transport..

i'm starting work next monday, signed on the dotted line with NETS today.. going to be a "Executive". but it's going to be more like "SLAVE" for the pittance they are giving me. anyways it's something to tide me over while i suck my savings dry from all the diving i want to go for, and while the air force takes it own sweet time to help me empty my bank account...

so well there, that's how life is, and i'm still as indifferent to things as before.. maybe a new goal, such as looking forward to payday will give me a fresh incentive to move my alignment from neutral neutral...

till then...